Lately I’ve found myself watching people being amazing.
It seems like everyone I know has been mellowing out in their cocoons and have now emerged with wings that allow them to soar and while I think “wow that is so cool, look what (insert name) can do now!” I’ve also observed how other peoples successes has impacted on me.
Buddah wisely said “He who envies others does not obtain peace of mind.” and I’ve been trying to make some sense of it all.
It’s not that I’m unhappy that my friends are now doing even more awesome things than before in fact I can be quite “Mum” like in my pride when they share this weeks latest breakthrough.
This weeks biggest highlight was when someone ran over to me and said
“Julz! I got my first freestanding handstand, the first thing I thought was WOW! this is what Julz must feel like when she does handstands”
I mean how cool is that!
I guess each successive success story just reminds me of the things I can’t do (like a muscle up) or would like to be better at, (the list is endless). I’ve even contemplated giving up things so I could once again work on my weaknesses BUT surely that would just be a losing battle, after all I’ll always have weaknesses and there will always be people who are better.
During my quiet times I’d acknowledge my thoughts and have tried to calm that part of my being that needed to “fix this now”. I knew that clarity would (eventually) find me, I just had to be receptive to the signs.
Then out of the blue someone said to me “I love your daily posts, you are so inspirational”
You would think that would be “sign enough” but no, I fobbed it off and mumbled something like “oh – that’s nothing”
Then as I stood watching some people at the box perfecting some skills I said (to no one in particular) “Everyone is doing such amazing things now!” When a friend turned to me somewhat quizzically and said “so are you”.
OK higher being out there in the universe, I get it. Amazing is in the eye of the beholder. It’s time to start talking to myself how I talk to everyone else, with kindness after all somewhere, someone else is grateful for a lot less than what I have.
Till next time
(Be kind to yourself)