Competitor

I should have three more sleeps till show time.. I should be be carb deprived and excited, but alas.. my life now revolves around Auckland Hospital.  It’s been a whirlwind two weeks since Dad was diagnosed with cancer then undergoing a life saving operation that basically “chopped off most of his head” 😉

What have I learnt in my off-season?

I’m vain!

Is vanity such a bad thing?

I much prefer to look good than I do to eat copious amounts of whatever I please.  Yep I’ve put on weight but that would have happened anyway, its unrealistic to sit at competition weight off season, but I do like to see definition in the mirror as opposed to a puff ball tummy, so my eating is back to being pretty clean and boring but If I want something, I think about it .. if its worth the extra work needed to keep my weight in check, I will eat it.

I can always find time.

I’m fitting it all in!  Training, hospital visits and home life.  Training involves 5 weight sessions and 7 cardio sessions a week.  Yes it involves getting to the gym at 5am, but it’s getting done and I feel so much better when I’ve done some form of exercise.  Lavinia my old training partner, who I normally walk with each morning has even started coming to the gym, although I think after some of the weight sessions she was regretting her decision 😉

I am not as strong as I think I am

Note - too many tears give you a headache!

When it comes to my Dad, I’m a big baby!  Seeing him in intensive care was devastating, he looked so small and frail.  I scolded Mum for crying in front of him (he was semi conscious), but as soon as I walked out of the room I burst into tears that didn’t stop.  I felt like such a failure because I couldn’t go back in, because I didn’t want Dad to see me so sad and worried.  I pleaded with God not to take him from me, over and over and over I prayed “Please don’t take him … please don’t take him”

My Dad is still the strongest man I know

My Dad is better than carbs!

You know how when your little and you think your Dad is the biggest, strongest, smartest, best looking etc etc?  Well my Dad really is, enough said really  .. 🙂

I have amazing friends

I've been blessed

You all know who you are.  I just want to thank you all for your support, offers of help (especially the babysitting offers lol) and prayers.

I am not just a competitor

Many parts make a whole

Yes I am proud to say that I am a figure competitor.. It’s who I am, it’s why I train and I have met some amazing people in the sport, but it’s not the be all and end all and it’s not the only title I have.  I am a Mum, Wife, Daughter, Friend, Cousin, Niece, Colleague and to some Arch Nemesis and all of those things complete me.

Till next time

PS – The ballet was amazing .. pity about the ice cream sundae machine breaking down though .. however that is another story!