Are we there yet?

I’m going to come right out and say it.  I’m tired.  Not only physically tired but mentally tired as well.

I can feel it, my husband can see it and the kidlets can sense it.  I can honestly say I’m counting down the minutes till its show time .. then holiday!

I know I should be tired, obviously if you ask your body to run on a deficit of calories that’s  just what is going to happen.  But I feel so “useless” when I hear from friends that they are getting on with the job with relative “ease”

I’m just going to convince myself they are lying.  My friend Donelle sent a lovely text yesterday to let me know that she was having a hard day too .. and that I wasn’t the only one.  Although Donelle (who I refer to as superwoman) does her weight training and then does a 10k road run as a chaser AND she is the only person I know who gets up earlier than I do voluntarily!  I should call her super freak! 😉

Speaking of super freaks, I trained back with Miss Jo last night … cor blimey, I am sure that woman is on a mission to kill me.  She also wants to do my measures tonight.  I however am not so keen.  I can see I’m no leaner than when I was a week out from the last show so the best I can hope for is that I am the same, but what happens if I’m fatter?

I know for a fact that if my measurements are bad there will be tears.  But will I be able to suck it up and just get on with it .. or will I completely fall to pieces in my carb deprived state?  That’s the part I’m really worried about.  I have visions of last time I lost the plot, and I really don’t want to go back there.

On a brighter note.  I got the photos that were taken at the show by  Muscle Imaging yesterday and I have to admit I looked damn fine!  I showed my family (because they didn’t travel to the show with me) and they were also mighty impressed.  James in particular was amazed and how I had filled out after the carb load, he said I looked so tiny and depleted when I left home that he couldn’t really envisage what I would look like.

So .. I think as long as I look as good as I did last time, I will be happy on the day.

Till next time