I should have three more sleeps till show time.. I should be be carb deprived and excited, but alas.. my life now revolves around Auckland Hospital. It’s been a whirlwind two weeks since Dad was diagnosed with cancer then undergoing a life saving operation that basically “chopped off most of his head” 😉
What have I learnt in my off-season?
I much prefer to look good than I do to eat copious amounts of whatever I please. Yep I’ve put on weight but that would have happened anyway, its unrealistic to sit at competition weight off season, but I do like to see definition in the mirror as opposed to a puff ball tummy, so my eating is back to being pretty clean and boring but If I want something, I think about it .. if its worth the extra work needed to keep my weight in check, I will eat it.
I can always find time.
I’m fitting it all in! Training, hospital visits and home life. Training involves 5 weight sessions and 7 cardio sessions a week. Yes it involves getting to the gym at 5am, but it’s getting done and I feel so much better when I’ve done some form of exercise. Lavinia my old training partner, who I normally walk with each morning has even started coming to the gym, although I think after some of the weight sessions she was regretting her decision 😉
I am not as strong as I think I am
When it comes to my Dad, I’m a big baby! Seeing him in intensive care was devastating, he looked so small and frail. I scolded Mum for crying in front of him (he was semi conscious), but as soon as I walked out of the room I burst into tears that didn’t stop. I felt like such a failure because I couldn’t go back in, because I didn’t want Dad to see me so sad and worried. I pleaded with God not to take him from me, over and over and over I prayed “Please don’t take him … please don’t take him”
My Dad is still the strongest man I know
You know how when your little and you think your Dad is the biggest, strongest, smartest, best looking etc etc? Well my Dad really is, enough said really ..
I have amazing friends
You all know who you are. I just want to thank you all for your support, offers of help (especially the babysitting offers lol) and prayers.
I am not just a competitor
Yes I am proud to say that I am a figure competitor.. It’s who I am, it’s why I train and I have met some amazing people in the sport, but it’s not the be all and end all and it’s not the only title I have. I am a Mum, Wife, Daughter, Friend, Cousin, Niece, Colleague and to some Arch Nemesis and all of those things complete me.
Till next time
PS – The ballet was amazing .. pity about the ice cream sundae machine breaking down though .. however that is another story!